Engineers and programmers are the often-anonymous architects of society, and what you do now could make a huge difference to the lives of millions, even billions, of people in decades to come.
-Charlie Stross Shaping the Future
Friday, February 11, 2005
i miss having someone to talk to for hours on end. i miss having someone to hold. i miss the hugging, kissing and spooning in bed. i miss doing the things you don't want to do when all you want is to sit at home in front of the TV but you do those things anyways because you're with someone special and it'll make them happy and making them happy is all worth it. i miss knowing someone special is right there with you. i miss that warm fuzzy feeling you get when you see that person for the first time in the day even though you were talking to them on the phone for over an hour when they walk in. i miss being afraid of losing that person or being afraid of suddenly leaving that person and then making them sad. i miss missing that person when you have to be away at school. i miss the surprise visits and feeling guilty that that person had to come so far. i miss feeling so good inside knowing that that person would come so far.
i miss all that and more. but i shouldn't be sad over the things i don't have or the things i lost. i should be happy for the things i have.
but, that was all that i ever had...
i'm sorry i took everything for granted. i guess in the end i'm where i'm supposed to be.
