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Saturday, December 13, 2003
let's break this track down in reverse.


Donnell Jones - Where I Wanna Be

i just left my baby girl a message
said i won't be coming home
i'd rather be alone
she doesn't fully understand me
cause i'd rather leave than to cheat
if she gives me some time
i could be the man she needs
but there's a lot of lust inside of me
and we've been together since our teenage years
i really don't mean to hurt her
but i need some time to be alone

but when you love someone
you just don't treat them bad
oh how i feel so sad
now that i wanna leave
she's crying her heart to me
how could you let this be
i just need time to see
where i wanna be
where i wanna be

never did i imagine
that you would play a major part
in a decision that's so hard
do i leave? do i stay? do i go?
i think about my life
and what matters to me the most
girl, the love that we share is real
but in time your heart will heal
i'm not saying i'm gone
but i have to find what life is like
without you

i'm sorry baby


i guess i'm starting to understand. but it still doesn't stop it from hurting.


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today was by far the worst drive i've ever had between Costa Mesa and Los Angeles. it took me 2 hours and 50 minutes to get home!! can you believe that shit? the previous record was 2 hours and 30 minutes. today was horrible. at least i wasn't on the 405 North. they closed down 3 lanes (carpool and 2 regular lanes). i was going so slow i could watch the CHP officers surveying the scene. i could've gotten out of my car to talk to them and walk back and traffic would still be the same. insanely horrible. i was able to eat all of my yan yans without a worry. and the radio sucked too! i need an MP3 player or something...

i hate driving in LA. everything is so hectic and chaotic. everyone is just trying to get somewhere. defensive drivers will not last in LA. you must be offensive and aggressive. if not, the city will just eat you up.

slept for a few hours to make up for the lost sleep this morning (bastards up stairs). that final today was insane. i think everyone was dumbfounded at how difficult it was. again, it was a very very long test. i left 20 minutes before time was up because i couldn't take it anymore. my head hurt trying to think (plus i was tired). starbucks, red robin, graffitea, poker and pool. sounds like a usual night. good times.


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Friday, December 12, 2003
a drink is starting to look good right now...

assholes that live above us. first they stomp around like they're fucking rhinos. now, one of them wakes us up 3 o'clock in the morning moaning in pain. he would moan in pain and then hit something so that the whole room would shake. (don't think of it that way you dirty SOB!). it sounded like he was getting murdered or beat real bad. as if the attacker would hit him real hard with a club (thus the shaking) and then he'd cry out in pain. the period T would be about 10 seconds (meaning the crying and shaking would happen every 10 seconds). thus the frequency f is 1/T = .1 Hz. ω = 2 Pi /T = Pi / 5. fucking finals. i can't wait to get out of here. what am i gonna do? fuck... i better do something or imma go crazy. hit me up.

i need to hit something. need a punching bag up in here. hitting that punching bag with the torso of a guy at sports mart... felt good jabbing the fuck out of that guys face. threw in a couple of hooks here and there. i should buy it. that or a speed bag. i have no rhythm in my punches. fuck i'm pissed right now.

sleep deprived but need to keep going. i think i'll bike around some more. very relaxing.


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biked from my house (it's near OCC) all the way to Barnes and Nobles at Metro Pointe. man, that route ain't shit compared to what i got ot do every day from the apartment to class and back again at ucla. it's nice living on a mesa where everything is flat. there was one uphill climb (on fairview going over the 405 freeway) but, again, that shit is nothing compared to west wood hills. we've got one hill over here with a 12:1 grade (how do i know? it says on the floor "caution: slope exceeds 12:1").

anyways... i'm preparing myself for snowboarding on saturday. making sure most of my body is worked out before i hit those slopes. i've even started to pick up my breaking. i've got two windmills down... still need to build up my upper body strength to carry on an infinite amount. damn my chest hurts. i'm glad the chest pains are now more painfull than the heartache. i can't say that i'm totally over it but i'm doing a whole lot better. thanks all for your support and being there for me. couldn't have done it without you guys. you're the best. it's nice to know i have such great friends that'll be there for me. *tear. anyways... i'll always be there for you guys... that is, unless jessica alba tells me not to. you know how it is.

technical info
rotary engine (or wankel): the infamous engine with no pistons. it's not a V- or a straight- anything. developed and made by dr. felix wankel. it's a rotary! found on the beautiful and sexy RX-7s of the past, the brand new RX-8, and on the old Datsun 510. this thing is a beast. it'll rev to god-knows-what speeds without breaking a sweat. bolt on a couple of turbos (or one big turbo for you insane ass mother f@#%ers) and you've got torque, power, and revs. that's one deadly combination.

cons
the engine is not perfect though (come on, it's been in only a handful of production cars and who'll be daring enough to stray away from the tried and true piston engine). rotaries of the past have their exhaust ports on the front-back (for lack of a better word) walls of the housing rather than the side walls and cause overlap between the opening of the intake and exhaust. the most recent rotary engine, the renesis, found on the RX-8 has solved that problem and has put the exhaust port on the side wall. perfect!

rotaries are also prone to overheating and pinging because of the large surface area of the combustion chamber (more surface area = more places for heat to be absorbed). that's why the new renesis engine doesn't have turbos (turbos create insane amounts of heat). this overheating causes the wearing down of or a complete blow out of the apex seals. the apex seals are like piston rings but not (apex seals separate the three combustion chambers while piston rings separate the combustion chamber from the... oil chamber (?). i dunno what that part of the engine is called... does anyone?). blow an apex seal and it's exactly like blowing a piston ring: you've got to tear down the whole engine to fix that thing. luckily, there are so few moving parts in a rotary that it's not all that bad.

pros
the engine is so lightweight. there are so few parts involved: just the rotary and the housing. that's it! there's also only 2 moving parts in the whole engine: the rotary and the output shaft. you don't have any timing belts, camshafts, valves, crankshafts, or connecting rods to worry about like you do in a piston engine. you break a timing belt in a piston engine and you gotta worry about replacing 16 (for your honda and civic owners out there) up to 48 (for you god damned exotic car owners... or MB alpha-600 owners) valves. boost or nitrous your piston engine car too long and you've got to worry about breaking everything. parts may even fly out and poke wholes through your big block of iron or aluminum. none of these problems in a rotary, boost or nitrous your RX-7 and you've just got apex seals to replace (granted... this happens many many times in the lifetime of a rotary engine... but it's simpler and easier to fix than in a stupid piston engine). less moving parts = smooth. that helps in the high revving department. the compression ratio is also low, contributing again to the high revving features of the engine. in a piston engine you've got 4 up to 12 pistons in the engine. in a rotary there are either 1, 2, or 3 rotaries. no valves = flatter torque curve. you don't have to worry about valve timing or lift in a rotary (awww... that means no VTEC... stop crying you fucking honda lovers... it's a good thing).

13B: 2 rotary engine twin turbo found in all North American RX-7s
20B: 3 rotary engine twin turbo found only in japan. imported to make some insane RX-7s.


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Thursday, December 11, 2003

Jagged Edge - Walked Out Of Heaven

i'm rollin' down a lonely highway
asking god to please forgive me
for messing up the blessing he gave to me
i see everything clearer now
the night's as black, as black as it's ever been
without my girl ima lose it
and i pray that he just sheds his grace on me
i need to just feel right with my baby

feels like i just walked right out of heaven
feels like i damn near threw my life away
they said it's like a child that's lost at seven
don't know what to do
feels like i just walked right out heaven

see my mama told me that if it's meant to be
she'll come back and she'll forgive me
and the best thing i can do is to just let her, let her go
i know i dont wanna do it
but if I continue to push she'll just pull away
and I know that in my heart it's a reality
i didn't treat her like she wanted to be treated
and I hope that she's not gone for good


"anything worth having is worth working HARD for"

so you better treat her right and work hard. she may be demanding but she's all worth it. don't mess up like before. do it again and there's gonna be someone without any knee-caps (right, jackson? that's what i'm talkin' 'bout, nyucka!)


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Wednesday, December 10, 2003
a very interesting morning. a call woke me up... what happened afterward was like a dream come true. and then i went to sleep, woke up, and faced the reality that it was a dream.

the much dreaded test is finally over. stupid EE 2 - solid state physics: semiconductors. surprisingly, it wasn't as hard as i thought it would be. at least i knew how to do most of the problems, i guess it comes down to my computations. so that's 2 down and 1 to go. luckily the professor for my last final let us know what each of the questions will cover.

i feel very relieved now. there's so much to look forward to over christmas break...
saying of the day
the holidays either make you really happy by helping you realize all that you got or make you really sad by showing you how lonely you really are.


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Tuesday, December 09, 2003
well... i'm back. been a while people. thank you thank you. no applause necessary.

first of all, i want to bring this to your attention:
scroll all the way down to 12.05.03 on this guy's blog

for those of you who are afraid to click on links, here's what is says:
The event was held at a car museum, so we went around making fun of all the exotic cars. You'd think there'd be nothing to make fun of in an exotic car. Not true. You can say things like, "I could buy this, this, this, and that if I wanted to" or "that car looks like it's backwards." Or you could sing the Knight Rider theme next to every black car just to annoy people.


what a dumb fuck. you do not go to a car museum and make fun of the cars. that's like going to the veteran memorial and making fun of the dead people. second, knight rider was an awesome show. the theme song was so good that it was used in a hit song with timbaland and magoo and busta rhymes.

don't hate what you don't understand. don't hate on what you'll never own.

The highlight of the night was definitely us syncing in on the same thought frequencies when it came to pretentious rich people. We spent the evening thinking up white-collar catch phrases such as "faaaabulous, daah-ling" or "it's to diiiiie for" or my personal favorite - "that's rubbish."


"thought frequencies", "pretentious", "white-collar catch phrases". who the fuck says that but pretentious, white-collar rich people? please....

aiite. that was my hate of the day.

check out the info to the right. you might find it useful. it contains the many secrets of life. remember: keep it simple. keep it real.


tech stuff

turbo bike: that's right, you thought my turbo charging would stop with eliza... wrong! turbocharged V-twin... i don't think twin turbocharging would be smart since exhaust back pressure would be too small to create good boost. but imagine, a turbo bike... spooling that thing at 13k revs... that's just suicide. lol. imagine launching at boost... that bike would just fly right beneath you. you'd be standing there wondering what the hell just happened.

*just added: 500hp turbo bike (thanks to frank for the link)

turbine bike: what's the diff. between this and a turbo bike? well... a turbine engine is what they use in airplanes and jets. that's right. a jet engine on a bike. a place in southern california makes it and it sells close to $200,000. that's about the same price as a Porsche 911 GT2. jay leno already has one. i saw this thing on the history channel (yeah... i'm a geek, but damn proud) and they don't know the bike's top speed since there's not enough flat land anywhere. the top speed they reached at the salt flats was over 200mph. the bike just gets faster and faster as the speeds increase due to the way a turbine engine works (no gearbox, just 1:1). it idles sooo quietly you don't even know if it's on. now that's a suicide machine.


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links
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catherine
jenny
lisa
loc
theresa
vanessa

girls i will leave my wife for
(no questions asked)
1. Jessica Alba
2. Kate Beckinsale
3. Kristen Bell

what we're living for
happiness

what we need
family and friends

all i want
is someone i can talk to
someone who will listen to what i have to say

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