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Saturday, February 21, 2004 i gotta say, today was a good day. from the moment i woke up to this very second, it has been good. okay, so breakfast wasn't that great and i didn't get my fill. but after that. i actually went to my CS discussion/interview where they actually take roll. i came 15 minutes late but people were still there so i got my fill! yes! academic good thing. drove home from LA. took a while but not too bad of a drive. although there were slow ass cars in the carpool lane only going 65 with tons of room in front, i had no beef and it was a pretty calm ride. i filled up on gas in LA thinking my eighth of a tank won't get me back. i only put a little because LA gas is always more expensive than OC gas. i was wrong. $2.25 in LA and $2.27-2.31 in OC. wtf?! bam, it turns out i didn't need to fill up. eliza's new SAFC is coming in handy and already saving me gas. now i just need to work on that idle. good drive. came home to some champions and some pizza stop pizza with sammy. good food. went to the park with sammy to shoot around and bam! i was on fire today! made many of my shots. good b-ball. watched euro trip and it was a surprisingly funny movie. it was stupid funny like you would expect but some damn mad hella funny! good movie. went to marcus' and pat's place over at dartmouth court at UCI for one of roy's most infamous kickbacks. some good socializing and kicking it. good party. too bad it got broken up by security. aww wells, there's always next week and next month. so we decided to go to mardi gras down the ways over where the main library and zot zone is. we chilled and met up with vanessa, theresa, vince, and chris. it was nice seeing them. good old friends. now here's where it gets good... while walking to our car there are two chics in front of us that are not bad at all. so dave decides to put on his game and talk to them. to no avail so we walk back to the car while they walk to their dorm. i ask dave if he got their number and he said "no, blah blah". so i'm like "dude, you want me to get it for you?" he's like "yeah. i'll buy you boba". so i'm like "alright, what do i have to lose?" so i run over and start talking to them and bam! got some digits. i told her dave wanted hers and she's like "well then, how about i give you mine and you give me yours" and i'm like "dope dope." and bam, we chat for a little bit and that was that. told her about the party next week and hopefully they'll be up for it then. here's the stat: she's a first year at UCI from seattle. good deal. but it continues from there... so we drop off sammy and head over to graffitea. we chill a little bit and there's this girl there studying by herself. she's cool and so i decide to talk to her. we talk and what not and she turns out to be really chill and so yeah. that was that. here's teh stats: second year at UCI. went to saddleback. knows twee(?). drives an 88 camry (like paul's) but wants a new ride. undeclared major. asks for my help on making a flashing LED for some convention she's doing. studying gen. chem for a midterm next week because she didn't too well on the first one. might want to do civil engineering. good girl. that was my day, thank you very much. c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 2:36:00 AM (0) comments Friday, February 20, 2004 it's 2:30a.m. and i can't sleep. it's one of those long nights that never ends but you sooo want it to. i don't know how separated couples do it. waking up in the middle of the night, looking at the empty space next to you that used to be hold a loved one. the stacks of untouched pillows. the large bed that you bought together because the beds in the dorms were waaaay to small to hold two people. the tempurpedic pillow they bought online thinking it was a good deal but turned out to be fake. the stuffed animals you used to play around with that each had their own name and personality. the very warm blanket their mom made. the space next to the window because it had the best reception to talk at night. how can you sleep with all these things? with all these feelings and emotions just clouding your every thought? you have to belittle everything. take away the meaning from things. erase the memories, erase the feelings, erase the thoughts. oh well, there went two years of your life and many years of would be's, should be's, and could have been's. just don't think about it and you'll be fine... but how can you not?!! remember when you used to ask each other how much they loved you and you'd answer with an unfathomable amount like the number of stars in the sky times the number of blades of grass times the number of flowers there are times the number of insects in the world times... ask me how much i hurt and i'll respond with the number of stars in the sky times... why am i writing all of this now? how the fuck should i know! it's bullshit. everything's too slow. everything's too meaningless. gotta take it one second at a time, hoping that the next will be better than the last. thank you roy for your party tomorrow. gives me something to look forward to with each passing second. c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 2:26:00 AM (0) comments clearing out your buddy list is interesting. let's you know who you really talk to and who you would like to talk to in the future. there's a lot of screen names that i don't know how the hell they got there. oh well, they're gone. there's some people that you just have to get off your buddy list because you can't stand to see them on or can't stand to read their away messages, because it'll rack your brain wondering what they're doing or who their with or what they're thinking about. screw that shit. life is too slow now. damn it sucks. there's so much i want to do and say and share. but all i can do is watch the seconds and minutes and hours pass. if you're doing something, let me know. i'm down... i'm down for whatever. because it's better than what i'm doing now. c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 12:19:00 AM (0) comments Thursday, February 19, 2004 the best memories are the ones that are dreams come true. the problem with memories, though, is that they're only memories. the same problem with dreams, they are only dreams. *sigh*. so what should keep you going? you just have to keep your head up and know that tomorrow will be better. without that, then there's nothing. c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 10:28:00 AM (0) comments Wednesday, February 18, 2004 i'm sorry i didn't give you everything you deserved. i was so lame. i've learned and changed since then. i'm ready to give it my all now. wherever you are, i'll be here, waiting. come find me. you know i'm looking for you. c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 7:40:00 PM (0) comments you don't need a time machine to make things right from the past. life is not complicated. if you think it is, then make it simple. that's the only way to enjoy it. c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 12:33:00 AM (0) comments |
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