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Friday, January 09, 2004 total number of traumatizing girls at UCLA: 2 (that i've seen, mind you) -Rose that lived on our floor freshman year -that girl me and sammy saw in the Math and Sciences building today. can you believe it? a fine girl like that in South Campus? you could tell she didn't belong there. she was lost and asked for directions and looked at the map. i did Roger Doger style today. Uncle Frank would be proud of me. god damn she was fine c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 4:12:00 PM (0) comments Wednesday, January 07, 2004 a good night tonight. played some ball. sorry guys, i lost the game for our team. way too many wide open shots where i shot it flat. need to work on that. my game really sucks. but it's all for fun. hate to lose it to some sorry people too. oh welps. there's always tomorrow. learning how to spin the ball in bowling now. not too bad. getting the hang of it. helped me and steve win our 2v2v2 tonight. got 2 strikes and a gutter on the 10th frame. gotta learn how to control that ish now. steve brought over some coronas. again, i did not finish mine. bought fuzion frenzy for the x-box today. it's for mainly for my nieces, partly for me. me and the guys, we played it for hours tonight. had mad fun with it. good shit. one bad note that stopped the night from being great. sorry for hurting you. you know i don't mean it. and i know saying that don't mean shit. but it's the truth. i know saying the first line of this paragraph will cause shit, but damn... you speak your mind in a blog. so this whole thing ended because you were hurting, then i hurt like crazy because it ended, and now that it's ended i'm still somehow hurting you. once you ended it the hurt should've stopped. but you still talking to me keeps you hurting. so should we really stop talking? i could've sworn that we were better than this. that we were best friends at one point in time. are we too different that that won't work? i still wanna say "moded" to all the nay-sayers out there (that we can't stay friends). but if you're hurting, then let's just stop fooling ourselves. i'm sorry if i say i'm over it when i'm not. i'm still bitter. but can you blaim me? i guess i shouldn't say i'm over it because i'm bitter. i guess i'm over the fact that it's over and the fact that you're with someone new. or... instead of saying "over", i can handle knowing that it's over and i can handle knowing you're with someone new. well anyways, i'm better than how i was before. before i couldn't think about it and not hurt and cry. now i can think about it and just state it as a fact. a truth that is out there. a truth that i can't deny. nice... so this is what a blog is for. for putting down shit when no one is there to listen. that's probably why i didn't blog before, because i had someone to listen to me. it's nice to listen to other people. i wish more people would hear me out. maybe i need more interesting shit to say. so this is going out to all y'all out there (females)... if you're out there and willing to listen, lemme know. shoot, i think i'm a good listener, too... i'll listen to you and we can talk. we can hang out and have fun. maybe bowl, and shoot some pool, and play basketball, and play poker, and talk about cars, and work on cars. just enjoy each other's company. i'm not looking for someone to marry. just someone to laugh and play with. oh yeah, you should also be able to take insults and disses and jokes well. and it should be able to diss and joke back. you'll need this skills to mingle with my friends well. if you can do this, you'll be just like one of the boys but with nice boobies and a pretty face and an ass and intelligence. c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 2:59:00 AM (0) comments Tuesday, January 06, 2004 wow! i can actually say that i'm happy right now. hmm... i think i've been happy for a while, too. now, when i stop and think, i'm happy. i'm no longer sad about what i don't have or what i'm missing. i really appreciate what i have in front of me. and that's really great friends. when i stop and think, i'm not angry at the world anymore. shit happens and you gotta live with it. you can't let it ruin your life. a little more than a month ago i was angry and i was sad. i hated the world and i was sad for it making me lonely. i don't have a girlfriend anymore and i don't have someone that will always be there to talk to but i still have friends that i can talk to. they might not be there all the time but i should be patient enough to wait for them. again, i wanna thank all you guys that have been there for me. i really appreciate it. 2004 is going to be a great year. if your name starts with a 'j' and you're a girl... watch out now! c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 4:00:00 AM (0) comments Monday, January 05, 2004 jessica alba is so beautiful. i've been watching Dark Angel Season One on DVD for the past 4 hours. my god she is beautiful. and the episode where she is in heat... oh man! she walks up to a stranger in a bar and says "don't talk. just come." now why doesn't that happen in real life? c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 7:51:00 PM (0) comments yay. i finally get a break from work. nguyen^2 didn't schedule me at all this week. maybe because i got into a "fight" yesterday and kicked some guys car? naw... he's cool... whatevers. i'm free this whole week. holla back at me, aiite? if you wanna do something. let's do this shit. i tried a wheelman yesterday. awesome shit. if you don't know... a wheelman is like a motorized scooter thing with two wheels (picture a motorcycle) and a 50cc 2-stroke carbuerated motor in the middle. you put your feet in the middle of the wheels and you hold this thing with levers to actuate the gas and brakes. riding it is like a snowboard. it's hella fun. it's an all terrain vehicle that can go on concrete, grass, snow, sand. we took it out to that park that's not wakeham but in the same neighborhood. the name escapes me at the moment. it's near frank's.... again... that thing is awesome. it costs 1g but i'm thinking about building my own, Tim "The Toolman" Taylor style. the stock motor is like 3 hp. so i'm thinking about getting the 4.5 hp motor from my lawnmower in the back, getting a tiny turbo charger... and BAM!! 10-15 hp right there. the concept is tight. this year is turning out to be pretty good for me so far. you just gotta stay focused and keep positive. life's too short to dwell and feel sorry for youself. it's also too short to question everything that's going on around you. some things happen for a reason, some things don't. that's life. you just gotta appreciate what's there. i dunno. that's not very inspiring but you gotta do what you gotta do (as long as it's "right"). my condolences go out to those few people who are no longer with us this year. this year is lesser without you but that doesn't mean it can't be greater than the last. prayers, hopes, and wishes go out to those affected. they would want us to continue on so that's what we're going to do. steve, you're a strong guy and you're dealing with all that's going on around you real well. if you ever need anything, mang, we're here for ya. it's alright to cry, it is. just ask omar. look out 2004, here we come! day 004: over. c l i f f l o v e's thoughts at 1:29:00 AM (0) comments |
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